Love and Hate

Love,

It's been 2 months after the broke up.

5 years in relationship, gone like a wind.

He's gone like we're never know each other.

No calls, no talk, no platitude.

I feel like I was wasting my time with the same man for 5 years.

But I'm not regret knew him, more. I know him a lot.

I hope he is happier than yesterday, when we're still together.

Hate,

I couldn't duck out from reality that i hate him, a lot.

since we're broke up, lets say not in appropriate way.

But I couldn't lie to myself that I still cannot forget about him.

Moreover, its 3 days before his birthday.

How can I move on from him, the guy who 'run away' and then jilt this relationship one-sided?

I hate myself, but I hate him more.

God, help me. I really want to move my butt from his heart. I have to move on.